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For the next week, I am consumed by the Baha’i National Convention and Finals.
I’m done next Wednesday at 5 pm, hurrah!
But for serious, I have 10 pages to type tonight, so I’m going to get on that now. Hope everyone is doing well!
(Imagine me ingesting large quantities of Persian tea and chocolate as I type desperately!)
(click to make them bigger…)
The new fountain at the House of Worship…
Blue, oh so blue…
Happy First Day of Ridvan! I got to vote for a Local Spiritual Assembly for the first time this year, it was very exciting. 
I sit here, struggling to write my paper for Sociology…I have part of it done. Motivation is hard to come by.
I feel like the world that surrounds me is different. It is not the same street that I live on, or the same back porch that I sit on. We’re all feeling it, and we don’t know what it is. I’ve decided it is useless to speculate. Need to just pray.
It is perfect. There is that breeze with the mixed up smells of spring, car exhaust, and humidity. The back door is propped open and we’ve put the deck furniture back out (what little we have!). It took me 10 minutes to plant some flowers and basil in starter pots, so we will hopefully have growing things soon.
We don’t have the heat on anymore, and windows are open throughout the house. Bikes were brought up from the basement and snow shovels are taking their place. I live in flip-flops in the summer, and have begun to wear them every day now.
My last final exam is on May 4th. Summer will then begin, and I can’t WAIT. Conferences, weddings, family and friends visits, beach volleyball, biking, rollerblading…and work, of course. Our home will be full of the sounds of laughter and music, with back porch and kitchen philosophy dominating in the evenings.
I love Chicago. I love life, and its accompanying trials and joys. I love warm weather, and friends, and family. I love serving the Faith, and seeing the amazing change that is happening in the Chicago community.
Even I fall
slowly down
when I hear words from
the other half of me.
This is true, I know
and yet somehow
you and me are not
you and me.
It is not for now,
it may never be.
The words have made tears
sorrow and joy combined,
in this, what I dare not see.
Me: “Ramez…you do realize that we’re really big nerds? We’re sitting in the computer lab, when each of us has computers at home.”
Ramez: “Ah, that’s true, but we don’t have the luxury at home of sitting in chairs with approximately three semesters worth of farts in them.”
I just about died laughing. Now I am debating whether or not to post this entry, but have decided to, because humor is not something I normally put on this blog, and figured that everyone needs a laugh at least once a day. So, I’m considering this a service to humanity. yeah. heh.
*The world moved too fast for me today.
I was scrambling to keep up,
even with 6 eggs (3 for breakfast, 3 for dinner)
I have a protein craving, perhaps. (get it?)
*I missed the stop on the train again, this time at LaSalle.
Not because of a book, but because of conversation.
The diversion took Ramez and I to Dunkin Donuts
(coffee was needed for studying!).
*I decided what kind of ice cream cake I want for my birthday
(in 5 months, the sum of the two digits of my age will equal 4).
*At the library, we discovered that it was closed,
so off to the cafe it was, with 80s music playing overhead.
*Term papers are taking over my life. It is the research part that gets me.
Writing a paper takes no time at all.
*The world has been surreal recently. Everyone around me feels it.
We discussed this last night…I simply can’t tell the difference sometimes
because life has been so completely strange.
We are in a different universe, we think.
That is ok. I always wanted to travel to distant lands.
I rode the train today, red line to roosevelt bus.
I missed the Roosevelt stop, and ended up in Chinatown.
Too immersed in my book, I did not mind the delay.
I come home to discover a gift of chewy chocolate chip cookies
(which are horrible for me, but I eat one anyway, as a treat).
In my mind, it is summer already…
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Say a prayer.
Step back, take a breath…
Say a prayer.
Aware of the combination of
pain and joy.
I pray.
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Suddenly, the time has come to register for my classes for the Fall. This is the last time that I will do this in my undergraduate career. I am actually looking forward to it, because as a senior, I can get into the classes that I want to get into. Well, hopefully.
This is for you,
running through this wild maze.
I’ve seen you struggle
to overcome these walls,
these endless green heights
surrounding our thoughts.
You’re beautiful, loves, every last one of you.
I like Chicago. I firmly believe it is one of the most beautiful cities in the country.
Chicago Public Library
This is has been my view every day for the last four years.
Today was beautiful. I took this while holding textbooks in one hand and a purse in the other, while wearing 3 inch heels. I’ve got mad skillz. haha.
