this is the result of years of battle, the scars run deep. the tears flow free.
if writing down a record of how you feel at this exact moment helps you remember…i am not sure that i want to.
there is a certain responsibility in holding onto things. i am tired of fighting this war, of the wounds reopening every few months. “if you don’t fight, who will?” (i am told) but fighting a one woman battle against the forces of inertia is an exercise in ulcers and frustration.
where do you draw the line, though? i need you (all) to fight with me, but there shouldn’t even be conflict here. i am hungry for something new to challenge me, for the excitement to come back. i love this place, but not enough to sacrifice my joy.
it is time to move on, and it is terrifying sometimes. But I am ready.
Inertia is quite powerful. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help.
Thanks Ezra. 🙂