{"id":866,"date":"2006-04-14T00:11:25","date_gmt":"2006-04-13T22:11:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/word\/archives\/866"},"modified":"2006-04-14T00:11:25","modified_gmt":"2006-04-13T22:11:25","slug":"stuck-freewrite","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/archives\/866","title":{"rendered":"Stuck freewrite"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I want to write.<\/p>\n<p>I want to write like I used to, with a sense of joy and strength underneath.  Somehow I hold back, something is not right.  I am dizzy from thoughts and sounds and the life that surrounds me.<\/p>\n<p>I am swept up in a constant current of broken-down houses and rainwater gutters, stoplights and ambulances.  There are no stars here, I wish I could wish but I&#8217;ll inhale the smog that passes for air in the passageways between streets.<\/p>\n<p>Spinning wheels around the metal enclosing our eyes behind beige corridors, high above reality in the realistic sense.  I hear pieces of music scattered around me, can&#8217;t create but I&#8217;ll watch and wait&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><center><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" alt=\"bwdown.JPG\" src=\"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/archives\/bwdown.JPG\" width=\"92\" height=\"100\" border=\"0\" \/><\/center><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I want to write. I want to write like I used to, with a sense of joy and strength underneath. Somehow I hold back, something is not right. I am dizzy from thoughts and sounds and the life that surrounds&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-866","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/866","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=866"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/866\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=866"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=866"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=866"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}