Mission (Feb 2004)<\/b><\/p>\n
I lost sight of my mission somewhere along the way.
\nAt my birth I was given an inescapable task.
\n\u201cGo and teach, spread the Word, be worthy of your heritage.\u201d
\nSuch a noble legacy, stories of heroism, sacrifice, and love.
\nSomewhere, my ego got in the way.
\nIn my zeal to serve I realized other things.
\nI became less na\u00efve and more cynical.
\nMy compassion never diminished, but my intentions changed.
\nWhen I protest, they say I\u2019m just being humble.
\nMost of the time, it is true.
\nBut somewhere inside me, my conscience is cringing.<\/p>\n
I recognized the need to strive one day,
\nWhen I sat in a room full of people and didn\u2019t want to connect with them.
\nFellow human beings, and even my<\/i> social abilities were strained.
\n(please understand, for me this is very strange!)
\nIt is like a shock to the system.
\nSurrounded by the things I love most in the world
\nI wanted to be alone.
\nIt has never occurred to me to be other that who I am
\nThe combination of characteristics that makes me unique.
\nAnd my beliefs will never change.<\/p>\n
But in myself, I was aware of a call for transformation.
\nGod never leaves us without a solution.
\nTo pray, to seek guidance, to simply serve with all of your heart and soul.<\/i>
\nStruggling against the lower nature, the part of you that says:
\n\u201cBut I want to sleep in today.\u201d Or \u201cI want a reward for this job.\u201d
\nIn the process of separation from self,
\nI found myself, somewhere along the way.
\n
\nThere is a reason parts of this poem are in present tense, and other parts in past tense. This poem represents conflicting emotions, and how one deals with them. Also, in the process of transformation, one never knows if they have really overcome something, I think.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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