{"id":2447,"date":"2011-06-25T19:16:20","date_gmt":"2011-06-26T00:16:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/?p=2447"},"modified":"2011-06-25T19:16:20","modified_gmt":"2011-06-26T00:16:20","slug":"just-be-here","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/archives\/2447","title":{"rendered":"just.be.here."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>there are a dozen things on the list that I carry in my head. technology tries to help me but in the end, I am left with this.<br \/>\n<em>write it down, go from here to there to here, with these people and this event and and&#8230;<\/em><br \/>\nthere is no sitting still.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve been dreaming lately. I&#8217;ve always dreamed, sometimes I dream the future and it comes true, sometimes I dream the present and my fears. there have been dreams about every noun. I dream through the lens of my camera. I live in a place that is no longer new to me, I miss the warm sun and thousand year old streets and year-round flowers.<\/p>\n<p>writing will begin again, with honesty, with the kind of raw power that I used to carry in every word. I forgot to hold onto that part of me when I started speaking more than I was writing. I want to write my book, the book of the things I learned. It is so difficult to be honest now when everything is analyzed to death. <em>just be.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>Here is the truth. Each day is wonderful, even in silence sitting side by side. The past has never been more distant.<\/em><em><br \/>\n<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>there are a dozen things on the list that I carry in my head. technology tries to help me but in the end, I am left with this. write it down, go from here to there to here, with these&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2447","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-thoughts"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2447","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2447"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2447\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2448,"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2447\/revisions\/2448"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2447"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2447"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sholeh.calmstorm.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2447"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}