I am frustrated.<\/p>\n
There used to be Baha’i songs, prayers, I was learning a new song every week in Chicago and there were people with rhythm<\/i> around me. With no effort a voice would be raised in praise.<\/p>\n
Today someone asked me to chant, and I could not think of a single prayer to chant, and fell back on one that I love but am so tired of singing.<\/p>\n
I need new songs. There is no music in me, no instruments to pick up and raise to the sky to say “Look! I created<\/i> something.” I create words that don’t rhyme (most of the time). But the one piece I own is my voice, and it is suffering, it is stifled.<\/p>\n
I can’t create a harmony. I can<\/b> lead people in song, I can sing solo decently, I am a high soprano with a wide range…but none of this matters because I can’t remember any songs or prayers any more.<\/p>\n
The only way I memorize prayers is through song. And I can’t remember. <\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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