September 18, 2005
I danced around helium balloons
laughing as they brushed around me
in circles, wind-carried.
I felt the rain
on a different day
it went to my head…
oh, last night
you should have seen me.
I need to get back
to the real me
the one who laughs without
inhibition or thought
how long has it been since
you really saw me?
I love Chicago, I really do. Thursday night:
What is in the news?
Thoughts of autumn, Halloween, the job search, interpersonal interaction, scarves, chocolate, roomate switches, travel, and parties invade my mind. All of the people that I know and keep in contact with, and forget to be in contact with. Whenever people ask what is new, I don’t really know what to say. Things are always happening, I’m just not sure I want to explain it all, haha!
Went to the Sufjan Stevens concert, the first show I’ve been to in at least a year, if not more. I am not sure if I have digested it completely. I had such a sense of joy and calm afterwards…the music, Sufjan’s voice, the vibe of the show itself. yeah. I think that is as far as I can go with words.
I beseech Thee, O my Lord, by that Remembrance of Thee through which all things have been raised to life, and through which all faces have been made to shine, not to frustrate the hopes I have set on the things Thou dost possess. Cause me, then, by Thy mercy, to enter beneath Thy shadow that shadoweth all things.
Be Thou, O my Lord, my sole Desire, my Goal, mine only Hope, my constant Aim, my Habitation and my Sanctuary. Let the object of mine ardent quest be Thy most resplendent, Thine adorable, and ever-blessed Beauty. I implore Thee, O my Lord, by whatsoever is of Thee, to send, from the right hand of Thy might, that which will exalt Thy loved ones and abase Thine enemies.
No God is there beside Thee, Thou alone art my Beloved in this world and in the world which is to come. Thou alone art the Desire of all them that have recognized Thee.
Praised be God, the Lord of the worlds.